The ruckus thats running a muck inside ones mind...

I can wish all i want , i can hope for better days , but these thoughts will never change my ways. I've realized its only me that make me happy...and to tell you the truth...i dnt see that in my near furture...i'm i destained to be alone for the rest of my life...when i try to trust i just cant seem to believe what they say...i wanna call them out..and scream at the top of my lungs...i did this so u can move on,ps i'm hurt that you cant see passed her, to see me...but i guess i mean nothing too..i need to realize that and get over my thinking i like u but i think that not being able to have you is what gets to me...and i bet if i did have you i wouldnt want you..and that would bore..me...